Monday, June 8, 2015

rasa masa lalu

Tiba tiba rasa itu menerpaku. Pernahkan kalian merasakan ini, bertemu dengan mantan yg sudah lama tidak bertemu, mantan yg dulu benar2 menjadi tumpuan dan cinta tapi kemudian dia meninggalkan kita?

Hari ini aku bertemu dia n anehnya rasa itu menerpaku, bukan rasa cinta atapun rasa benci, tetapi rasa tidak peduli. Dan salahkah aku jika aku merasa demikian? Kurasa tidak.

Sedikit banyak dia yg telah membuat aku seperti ini. Kadang aku berterima kasih padanya....karena dari dialah aku mengetahui banyak hal. Tapi kemudian semakin lama.....rasa tak peduli telah membuat aku tak mengingat dia lagi. Kata orang sih ud move on.

Mungkin...ini hanya mungkin....jika suatu hari aku bertemu kembali sama dia...rasa sakit itu tetap ada... Dan itu yg membuat aku tau bahwa aku masi hidup....untuk membuktikan diriku sendiri bahwa aku masih bisa hidup tanpa dirinya.

babblying

Its been a while since my last post. I think i have lost my touch. But then i met a friend...whom i dont even know his name shared his story about his family..his old time. And suddenly i remember my own blog. A blog i put a side....because i am too lazy to write. 

I do have some interesting friends...friends we dont judged each other. But somehow i still to shy to express my feelings out. I kept pulled a distance between. For me...nameless n faceless are my shield. I can write, tell story, say so many things but when i met new peoples....i become babblying. I like to listen to their story but somehow i couldnt tell them my story. Inhave to admited...even my closest friend didnt know much about me...what lay beneath me.

Some might say....people can change if u try. I did tried but to me....if they dont know me well, they can not HURT me. That is maybe my biggest fear. Hey....how come i be such a person?